Is it?

The past few days have been quite "interesting" to say the least. You know how sometimes you ask God to show you the way or give you a sign to let you know which way to go and then you receive an answer but still want more?

I had been asking to same thing over and over again, in all of my prayers. I had been asking for an answer, a sign to know whether this "dream" of mine really was for me; A "dream" that I never thought was that big anyway but just something I aspired to, something that I felt in my heart that I truly wanted.

Something did happen...
Something that could truly be the answer to all of my questions but at the same time feels more like a test. Or maybe it is the way I want to see it because I do not like the answer I was given...

Whatever the case may be, all I know is that it fell on me like a bomb; a bomb that literally destroys everything in its path... devastated I am... not sure what to do, what to say...

So the question remains... is it the answer I kept asking for or rather a test to see how bad I truly want it?